Peeping to the past


It was about two years ago when I used to study for an entry test.Yes!!!
After completion of my 10th ,we moved to Quetta because my parents wanted me to be a doctor.Due to the fact that I didn’t consult a career counselor, I also depicted medical as my future.After my 10th,my father took me to a couching center in (Qawary road) Quetta, named as “Quetta Professors academy” . I took classes of F.sc I and II there.Then I was admitted to an academy where students were taught and prepared for entry test.I was admitted to ” The Doctor’s Inn” situated at Metha Mal street Quetta..I found both academies interesting and informative.
I learned many things from two different environments.I had too much information about life,physics and chemicals.Then,the day was near,when I had to attempt a paper and prove my capability. I appeared in the examination ,reciting too many verses.I couldn’t control my nerves at that time and I was thinking that”what will happen if I didn’t pass?  Many questions were rambling in my mind and I had my fingers crossed. My parents and family members had a belief upon my intelligence and I wanted to maintain this reputation . I went to the hall with all weapons and bullets but life deceived me ..I didn’t pass .Yup!! a failure.I met a failure for the first time in my life when I saw my result of disqualification. It was not easy for me.I had never failed .I had been a position holder with good grades. But I failed and that was the undeniable reality.
I again stood up and started taking classes. My father and mother both wanted me to be a doctor.I didn’t know whether it was my cup of tea or not but I toiled . It was a trend in our city that girls must go for medical by hook or crook. But my parents did not force me to do so. I appeared in exam second time. I prepared my self ,I studied and according to me I left no stone unturned for achieving the goal of M.B.B.S. It was the second time when life deceived me and I failed for the second time.It was a huge lesion for me .I failed two times and I was disappointed in front of all.I thought I am useless now. I cannot pass a test . I offered prayers and asked one thing to Allah Almighty that” meri zindagi mai jo khair hai muje wahi ata kar” .I didn’t demand for anything else.
Then I decided and I told to myself  to try something else.I gave consolation to myself.I was going from a dismal phase.I thought that “may be this door is not for me”.Then I had a discussion with my parents .I told them that now I am not going to appear in a medical entry test. It is not like,I didn’t prepare well,I didn’t study but it was  not a part of my destiny.I still remember those sunny and hot days when I walked on the roads to reach to Academy. I still remember those sleepless nights and I still remember those chapters and books.Medical is a craze for girls in Makran. They ruin their everything to achieve it ,and may be I didn’t do so, that I failed.
The next year ,I devised to give a try to L.L.B. One night before the test,I opened a book of general Knowledge and the next day I gave the test.It was a tragedy in fact.I was on the merit. I got second position . That time I was a student of B.sc and I couldn’t go for five years L.L.B program.So I quiet it .Then I met my goal and I realized that it is my career and my craze. As far as my love and craze is concerned,it is a clandestine. I am afraid of envious people. They will take away my husband (My career).I am  completely in love with that.
The purpose of this writeup is to attend a career counseling session and don’t let failure fail you .

Emanation of thoughts


Lafzon ki rawani kis tarah ho mumkin…

Soch kr yeh,ungliyaan meri bol padti hain….(Yasmeen)

In this world everyone loves to be heard and understood.But a few get the chance to be heard.Everyone has different skills of communication. It varies from person to person.Amongst the 99% of population ,a few has the ability to transfer their feelings ,emotions and notions in a beautiful manner.I believe there is no sweeter language than poetry and poem to say one’s thoughts.A poetry may include of two lines but if one understands the lines,it is worth than a book.
I believe that three dots explain much than words and two lines of poetry describe the whole story and pain.Poetry is the language which keep the people connected .
These are the times when no one wants to listen.Fortunately if one gets a listener so one doesn’t understands .the situation gets complex if one lacks the both persons in life;a good listener and one to understand.
I was in 8th standard when i shared the stories of school with my mother .My environment was (and still is) very different from others.My parents are broad minded and they never stopped me from doing anything.Though i was born in a patriarchal society but i was allowed to ride bicycle,play cricket,wear paints and shirts.My neighbors would often scowl towards me when they saw me riding a bicycle but my father ignored such things.I was allowed to share every single thing to y parents.I was permitted to ask everything to my parents .But with the passage of time,when my mother started taking me to the house of relatives so i found a huge difference in my thoughts and theirs.My thoughts were education based and their thoughts were marriage and social based.I thought about Why? and they thought whatever it is,we don’t care.Whenever i shared my ideas so they refused to listen.So I started writing.I started writing with maimed grammar ,having no eyes ,ears,legs and hands 🙂 .
Then the interest of poetry developed in my genes.I know I am not perfect but I feel happy to do something which makes me perfect in my history.I write poetry and poems which keep me motivated.I share my ideas in a few lines rather than describing the whole scenario.
I believe that pure and sweet thoughts come from nature,soothing breeze and greenery.The bride of my literature looks beautiful when I decorate it with beautiful words loaded with light jewelries and makeup.
I love the time when I look the nature and my fingers start communicating with the pages themselves. I feel relaxed when such a feeling comes from inside my heart.
    “I hear the song which my fingers sing with the lyrics of love and pain.I hear my finger tips when they tinkle with the strings of my brain and thus the emanation of words keep going…..

Lost Yasmeen or New Yasmeen


Today when i woke up so i logged into word press and i started checking the comments and blogs of my bloggers,i saw many different and strange things.
I saw that once it was a time when i posted with broken English and my bloggers read my posts by motivating me .
So here is a Hello to all of my bloggers who were lost or either i was lost somewhere in this world.
I was searching many things and i was shocked by reading the comments and my posts.I searched blog of Harsha,Arindam and many more,once i realized that i am lost and it has been more than two years that i haven’t blogged.
Things have changed,environment has changed and moreover a lot of things have changed in my life .Many things have happened that have taught me lessons and many things have happened that have helped me in moving on!
When i used to blog in 2014-15 so i wrote in a different way,i couldn’t write in a good way,today when i checked those posts so i smiled and noticed the changes in myself that life is great ,many things have changed .
Before i thought that life can never be good but now i am happy and hug life with positivity ,before i thought that my life can never change but now i am living a life that i have dreamed for.
Yesterday i was a student of   intermediate ,now studying law :),
Before i wrote about social issues but now i am on the social and political platform and fighting against many things.
So far i came to know that the reason for all problems in Pakistan is Capitalism,class system and many more.And today when i read Karl Marx and Lenin so i realize that i knew nothing since i was in intermediate,i was not aware of anything but now i know many things because i started reading the right books that guide me towards a better life.
Yup things have changed and i love this change in my life because i think now i am justifying my articles into actions.
I thought may be i was lost somewhere but now i think i am changing into a new Yasmeen who has nothing to do with other things but i have many things to do for humanity on a platform .

Mega Corruption story in Bolan Medical College 


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It is not written by me.It is a report from somewhere i got.
  Mega Corruption story in Entry Test of BMC for Medical seats 

NTC Report (Neutral Transparent Committee Report)
Students of Balochistan have been very unfortunate that they have a single Medical college in the province,but they are even more unfortunate that the very entry into this Medical college goes through the darkest path of NTS Islamabad;an ill famed institute that was banned in punjab,banned in khyber pakhtunkhwa,has now been imposed on us to suck the blood of innocmedical students of Balochistan through it’s wicked agents and director and owner of a well-reputed entry test academy of Quetta.
In session 2015 BMC & QIMS entry test,nearly all the question (more than 85%) came from MCATs of a single academy as had already been claimed by the director of that academy in advance and had given assurance to his students that “You shall see that 85% Questions would come from my MCATs”.This raises many questions,objections and doubts about NTS and this entry test academy.This clearly shows that behind the screen NTS and this academy owner have secret links(which are no more secrets now) by which they already know what questions would come amd what not.And the Questions came exactly in the same wordings,word by word with same labelled diagrams and with no change of a single option.Isn’t it shameful????Isn’t it unjust with all the students studying and preparing for BMC outside the city and inside the city and even isn’t it unjust with the students of the same academy?

Thr story doesn’t end here,there have been stories recently with full evidences,that seats have been sold by local agents of NTS in collaboration with the owner of that specific academy at 8 to 12 lacs by giving key to students a night earlier than entry test ,how shameful,the person who the students think of as “Maseeha” is involved in such a mega corruption and we have been appreciating his efforts due to his hard work.were fees of students not enough to satisfy him financially,that he now is doing such a corrupt work behind the screen?Doesn’t he realize how hard it is for parents who wish their kids to became doctors one day.

There is a strong evidence that when the next day it was HEC test,that director of entry test academy solved 100 questions for students to see those questions with double emphasis and the very next day test conducted by NTS considerd of the same questions only.How did he know a day earlier that those questions are to come?

There are evidences that some agents sitting in Sakkar hotel Quetta made a deal with parents for Medical seat at Rs.8 lac and put the condition that deal would only be possible if your kid takes admission in Doctor’s Academy.Is not it enough for all the students studying in that or the other academies to conclude that this very academy is being used as channel for what sort of shameful activities and they havr been quite successful in attracting students,convincing them that more than 80% students move into BMC through this channel.

How is it unjust with students studying in the same academy?

If there are 6 seats of District Khuzdar in BMC and 90 students are competing for those 6 seats in the very same academy and they are told of all those questions which are to come and all of them know the correct answers in advance,then who will get seats.Of course!only those who have scored higher in FSc .Those who have lower score in Fsc can never think of seats then .There was a time when test was transparent,a student with 710 marks would cross a student with 850 marks in entry test,but now it is not possible,as students already know what paper is to come.

Isn’t it evidence that in academy currently the only emphasis is on cramming keys of those MCATs with double and triple emphasis on certain questions that he already knows would come next time .Isn’t it to suck blood of students forcing them to carm keys of thousands of MCATs that cost thousands of rupees too?How strange,students in that academy memorize questions with answers from specific leaked MCATs to give test of the same questions,so it means they are only given practice of cramming the keys and no creative assessment is doen.these students should avoid this approach as soon Inshallah there shall be no more NTS and no more of these questions repeated.

They are well documented stories of some famous doctors buying medical seats for their sons by paying hundreds of thousands of rupees using the same channel.

If,for a minute ,you say it wad a mere coincidence that he mentions 85 to 90 questions and those come as it is and have been coming for years ,then isn’t it shameful for NTS that they can’t make a single question by themselves?Isn’t it a big question mark on the credibility of the same institute?

If we compare the level of importance of Entry test;in a student life it is even more important than CSS exam and therefore the institute conducting such an important test/exam must be equally important and even more important than public Service Commission.So ,it seems really sad handing over such an important test to such an incapable institute that can even make a single question.

On the other hand even if board paper of matric exam is leaked ,it’s such a shameful story,but here the whole test paper is available and is discussed beforehand and some lucky rascals even get key from corrupt agents of NTS.

This province of Balochistan is not so rich in medical colleges as punjab,Sindh or KPK ,it has only one Govt Medical College and one private medical college ,therefore,students in the province have least possible options.

We request the principal of Bolan Medical College,Prof.Shabir Ahmed Lehri,who is the president of Pakistan Medical & Dental Council and hence all the medical colleges of Pakistan(Govt and private) are under him that he should take a very strict notice of it.Where he is monitoring corruption cases in the other medical colleges,there at the same time,so much of corruption is going on in maters of his own medical colleges seats.

We request Governor of Balochistan and CM of Balochistan along with minister of Health and Secretary health to take a very strong notice of all this and replace NTS with a standard institute that remains fully impartial and transparent.

What choices are we left with?One way is to become partners of NTS like the other academy and join them in the evil work they have been doing blindly for many years,but this is even more unjust with students who are working so hard .The other option remaining is to put all possible efforts to stop the way of NTS at all the levels in our province.There must be no single test conducted by NTS here .It must be the slogan of the year 2016 from each student preparing for entey test of medical and engineering colleges ,that We don’t accept NTS at all. If our medical college announce admission forms under NTS ,those forms must be blocked ,the administration block of BMC must be closed by the protesting students appearing in BMC test or engineering universities.

Students can call a press conference in this regard to make it public so that every body comes to know as to hoe much of unjust is being done with us.

Students should meet principal of BMC to block the way of NTS,They can meet CM and governor to change this institute that has been sucking blood of the cream students of the province.

Students can involve teacher’s association,professors association,students organization of BMC and other institutions to help them out.

Parents of students can meet the principal on their behalf to emphasize on this matter.They can hire a lawyer so that those responsible in this regard could be brought to justice and further activities of NTS can be stopped at all the levels.

NAB can be involved in this regard to probe deep into this matter so that the real situation comes to public whether it’s a mere blame or a factual story of Mega Corruption.